Monolog: All i ask

One of my favourite song from Adele. Lagu2 Adele ni memang semua power2. Suara dia tak boleh dipertikai. Dan lirik2 lagu dia sometimes ada dekat2 sama. Lebih kurang ceritanya.  Macam someone like you, hello, when we were young, all i ask... ceritanya lebih kurang about past love, Past tu bukan cerita semalam or sebulan dua, tapi cerita mungkin 5,6 tahun or berpuluh tahun yang lepas. Something that i can relate about myself.

Here,my monolog.
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I will leave my heart at the door
I won't say a word
They've all been said before you know
So why don't we just play pretend
Like we're not scared of what's coming next
Or scared of having nothing left

(Masing2 dah tahu apa akan jadi esokmya, apa yang akan dilalui nanti. Tapi tetap nak play pretend. Konon2 keras hati, boleh jalan terus..walaupun hakikatnya tahuu..tak akan)

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Look, don't get me wrong
I know there is no tomorrow
All I ask is

If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
'Cause what if I never love again?

(Tak,bukan sebab lawan takdir. Masing2 cuba terima takdir dah, tapi sometimes our heart need more and  much more time to accept something that we already know. Seolah2 macam kata, xpelahh kali ni je.. akhir dah ni. Esok pun kata gitu jugak. Sebab susah untuk dilepaskan sesuatu yang kita dah attach secara totally or drastik. At least cipta memory untuk kenang2 dulu)

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I don't need your honesty
It's already in your eyes
And I'm sure my eyes, they speak for me
No one knows me like you do
And since you're the only one that matters
Tell me who do I run to?

(Bukan masalahnya pasal kejujuran. Tak ada yang tak jujur, tak ada yang tak setia.  Semua dah perfect dah, tapi, its all about takdir. Dari Dia Yang Maha Mengetahui. Of course akan timbul banyak soalan dari diri, why..why..why.. jawapannya, tunggulah.. bila tiba waktunya nanti.)

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Let this be our lesson in love
Let this be the way we remember us
I don't wanna be cruel or vicious
And I ain't asking for forgiveness

(Yes, setiap yang datang yang terjadi itu disekalikan dengan hikmah yang hebat dariNya. Mungkin tak nampak dan2 tu jugak, tapi coming on..next. bersabarlah wahai hati2 yang tengah nak move on tu. 

The way we remember us: Yaa, lets be in each other past with a great memory. As a lesson to be better in next time..

I don't wanna be cruel: i want to be the most selfish person ever. But, i cannot. Bukan pasal baik sangat, tapi apa guna u menang, tapi hati tak tenang. And yes, Its cruel. To make you choose. between a normal love and ultimate love. Nothing to compare. Its better be like this..kalau hidup dengan memori itu lebih indah.

I aint asking for forgiveness: nope, no one fault. Segalanya aturan yang baik lagi terbaik dariNya.) 

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All I ask is
If this is my last night with you
Hold me like I'm more than just a friend
Give me a memory I can use
Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends.
CAUSE WHAT IF I NEVER LOVE AGAIN?

(Then, you will be in my memory forever.)

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Tapi tetap, yang terbaik yang tercantik dariNya nanti. Yakinlah. Fasobrun Jameel.